Frankly My Dear

Frankly, My Dear, I Don’t Give a Damn

Frankly my dear I don't give a damn
Gone with the Wind

Apparently my all time most favorite movie quote “Frankly, my dear, I don’t give a damn” not only made the top 100 list, but is #1. Who knew? When Rhett Butler spoke those heartbreaking words to Scarlett O’Hara back in 1939, they would be eternal and affect people for generations to come.

Two things for as long as I can remember have caused my heart to literally ache. The song “It’s Too Late” as sung by Carole King and Rhett Butler finally giving up on Scarlett after loving her so powerfully for so long.

When I first heard the song, I wasn’t thinking in terms of love or relationships. I was too young. I just remember suddenly realizing (I hadn’t thought about it before) that sometimes it can be too late even if you try really really hard to make it.

Ironically,  I was with my mother and father who ended up divorcing not very long after. I was oblivious. At the time, I was focused on whatever outing was being canceled because we took too long.


Now Rhett giving up on Scarlett, well that scarred me for life. Watching Gone with the Wind for the first time, or for the hundredth time I couldn’t give up all hope. I still haven’t. I think Scarlett O’Hara (me too) clung to the hope that she could somehow win back his heart.

But…

When she asks “Where shall I go? What shall I do?” and he answers “Frankly, my dear, I don’t give a damn.” It never fails to break my heart.

Why am I telling you this? Ummm… I was sad. When I’m sad I think of these two things. I blogged about it just because, I guess.

Kicking and Screaming Toward the Half Century Mark

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The Dance of Youth

As I am reluctantly dragged, kicking and screaming toward the half century mark…side note: boy do I wish I had the strength to actually physically resist, kick and scream right now 😉 … I think of the many ways that I’ve changed.

I prefer to think of it (for the most part) as evolving. That I’ve become wiser as I’ve aged.

In spite of the many things life has taught me and my continued progress toward “wise old owl designation”, two things remain constant.

I’ve lived my life believing that honesty is the best policy and I feel joy when I’m helping someone.

You would think being diagnosed with the F word (Fibromylagia), has been the biggest hurdle I’ve faced this past year but it’s not.

I am working on acceptance. I am working at evolving. I am trying to build a new life. One where we co-exist, my buddy Fibro and me. I am learning to LIVE with Fibromyalgia.

Sorry…that’s another glorious part of my new life…difficulty focusing and easily distracted…now where was I?

Right, the biggest hurdle that I’ve faced and am still facing is having to deal with dishonesty in the guise of being helpful. It’s like a double whammy for me.

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I can’t imagine what it must be like to live a life posing as someone helpful, when in reality you’re doing the complete opposite.  It must be a lonely life.  I wonder what they see when they look in the mirror?

Now this, this is one of the ways I’ve become wiser. There was a time I would have wished bad things for someone like that, now I feel sorry for them.  Never knowing the joy of truly helping people.

You will not break me. I will never stop believing that honesty is the best policy. In the end honesty will prevail over lies, ALWAYS.

For so many years I had it wrong. Failure was an option. As long as I gave it my best shot, and so I will.

Fibromyalgia Ain’t Gonna Get me Down

I realize for those of you meeting me here for the first time,  your initial impression might be that I’m a complainer or ungrateful.  I am not.

I am thankful every single day for the many blessings I have in my life.  In spite of every little task taking so much effort, I am grateful that my health is not worse.

I am lucky.  I have my daughters, my husband, my family, my friends, my home, my dog etc etc etc!  I don’t have to face this alone.

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Lonely Hearts Club Band Oil Pastel by Shelley

That is one of the reasons that I started this blog.  So that anyone out there facing this obstacle called Fibromyalgia doesn’t have to do so alone.  I hope that by sharing my inner most thoughts and feelings others will have a place to do the same.  That, at the very least they will know they are not the only one.  A question I have asked myself quite a few times throughout this last year.

Don’t get me wrong, this blog isn’t exactly some selfless act.  It is, or at least what I’m hoping will be an important part of my healing process.  My first big step toward acceptance, I mean really accepting that I have Fibromyalgia.  That in spite of there being no cure, I can heal spiritually and mentally.  I can improve physically and I am trying to embrace the new direction my life has taken.

People who know me beyond my words here understand how important control is to me.  They know having a weakness (any weakness) is incredibly difficult for me to accept.  That I pride myself on always setting the bar beyond what might be considered attainable heights.

This blog FibroFog.ca is a place where I will share my journey as I take back control of my life.  I’m taking you along for the ride as I learn how to accept certain limitations without lowering my personal expectations.

I hope to make new friends along the way, and I hope others will share their own experiences while learning to LIVE with Fibromyalgia.

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Tired of Wishing my Life Away

Last month was awful. Not because of family, not because of friends, not because of anything that I can control but because of something that is a part of my life, like it or not.

Throughout this last year I have done my best to eliminate negative from my life. I find myself “testing” more and more of the self help advice floating around out there. Some of it works, some of it doesn’t . Either way, I figure it’s worth a shot.

When unavoidable stress manages to ooze into my life, I do my best to handle it. I do my best to avoid a Fibromyalgia flare up. I try to “Stay Happy & Be Positive”

I wished away most of last month. I just wanted it to be over and now it is.

November has rolled around, and here I find myself once again just wishing for this situation to be over; permanently resolved. Which also means I’m wishing my days away…again.

Each day of life should be cherished, not wished away. I know that…I will get back to LIVING. I will not let a couple of bad apples drain my life of joy.

See that picture up there? *The Hug; that’s what I’m going to learn to do. I will embrace each day and LIVE it to the fullest. I will no longer wish my days away!

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