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The Great Big Thanks For Your Support!

I’ll keep it short. Two things…

Thank you all for your support! It means so much to me! LIVING with Fibromyalgia can be quite the ordeal. Visitors to my blog really make a difference.

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Distractions, Distractions, Distractions

I’m having one of those days, where I can’t quite keep up with my thoughts nor can I stay on track.  As I’m tackling one task, another pops into my mind which seems like more of a priority. So, then I flip to that one. While on the way to tackle the latest task (not having completed the other) I stumble across a couple more distractions.

I stop in mid track and change direction. Happens to the best of us, right?

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Distractions of the Great. New Yorker Cartoon

  Distractions of the Great

Published November 10, 1986
Each of four is thinking about something other than their art: Jane Austen, about her upcoming haircut; Verdi, about chocolate cake; Matisse, of a cat; Mme. Curie, of a beach scene.

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Sure we all get distracted and wander off track, to a degree but this inability to focus is way beyond normal. It is so frustrating not being able to get a grip on my thoughts; to keep them focused on just one thing.

It’s like I’ve lost yet more of me to Fibromyalgia.

Some of my greatest professional (and personal) attributes have weakened…

  • quick decision making
  • being able to multi-task
  • prioritizing
  • staying focused

Many days I’m able to reel it in, this ever wandering mind of mine.  Some days, like today though the distractions win out. I get frustrated and upset at not being able to stay on track. So many tasks get started and nothing gets completed. The more frustrated I get, the more easily diverted I am.

Until it becomes almost unbearable and then the exhaustion sweeps over me. You’d think that with the fatigue my mind would slow down, but it doesn’t.

Now I’m stuck with a racing mind, so many ideas, so much to do and I have no strength left. Sleep is not really an option because my mind won’t let me.

So here I sit as I continue trying to PUSH through this entry about distractions that I’ve been trying to finish for what feels like forever.

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  Ha ha friendly reminder to self…

 

 

 

 

 

With Great Effort Comes Exhaustion

I’d like to say I’m not letting exhaustion get me down, but that would be a lie.

I am sooo tired of battling to get something I’m entitled to. It’s exhausting and that’s what they are counting on.  Wearing me down to the point where I just give up.

They have me over a barrel. Hiring a lawyer costs money I don’t have. This leaves me with no choice but to fight on my own.

I have Fibromyalgia. They know it and I know it. I was approved for long term disability for Fibromyalgia two years same occupation. One year into the claim and two individuals have decided I can go back to work.

Ummm I still have Fibromyalgia, and as far as I know there still isn’t a cure. Nothing has changed since my claim was approved, except the Fibromyalgia is getting worse.

I am so overwhelmed by exhaustion just getting out of bed every day takes  incredible effort.  I’m in a perpetual state of anxiety and am afraid.

When overwhelmed with exhaustion don't give up remember David & Goliath
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When I find myself on the verge of giving up I think about the story of David versus Goliath. Sure it’s just me against a great big insurance company (with lots n’ lots of resources) but I do have truth on my side.

One of the biggest hurdles I’ve had to overcome (and still battle with each day) is acceptance that I have Fibromyalgia and with it comes limitations.

I was building a new life while learning to LIVE with my fibro buddy. I was focusing on what I could do instead of thinking about what I can’t.  I was letting go of the old me; embracing the new.

For months the insurance company has made me day after day after day talk about what I CAN NOT do.  It’s torture that befell complete and total mental and physical exhaustion.

I have been lied to and I have been bullied.  I’m so very very tired but…

vow to self I won’t give up, I will push through exhaustion until I come out on the other side!

 

I will beat exhaustion cuz I'm one tough cookie
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