With Great Effort Comes Exhaustion

I’d like to say I’m not letting exhaustion get me down, but that would be a lie.

I am sooo tired of battling to get something I’m entitled to. It’s exhausting and that’s what they are counting on.  Wearing me down to the point where I just give up.

They have me over a barrel. Hiring a lawyer costs money I don’t have. This leaves me with no choice but to fight on my own.

I have Fibromyalgia. They know it and I know it. I was approved for long term disability for Fibromyalgia two years same occupation. One year into the claim and two individuals have decided I can go back to work.

Ummm I still have Fibromyalgia, and as far as I know there still isn’t a cure. Nothing has changed since my claim was approved, except the Fibromyalgia is getting worse.

I am so overwhelmed by exhaustion just getting out of bed every day takes  incredible effort.  I’m in a perpetual state of anxiety and am afraid.

When overwhelmed with exhaustion don't give up remember David & Goliath
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When I find myself on the verge of giving up I think about the story of David versus Goliath. Sure it’s just me against a great big insurance company (with lots n’ lots of resources) but I do have truth on my side.

One of the biggest hurdles I’ve had to overcome (and still battle with each day) is acceptance that I have Fibromyalgia and with it comes limitations.

I was building a new life while learning to LIVE with my fibro buddy. I was focusing on what I could do instead of thinking about what I can’t.  I was letting go of the old me; embracing the new.

For months the insurance company has made me day after day after day talk about what I CAN NOT do.  It’s torture that befell complete and total mental and physical exhaustion.

I have been lied to and I have been bullied.  I’m so very very tired but…

vow to self I won’t give up, I will push through exhaustion until I come out on the other side!

 

I will beat exhaustion cuz I'm one tough cookie
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